Hiiii. Happy Monday. I love these “life this week” posts they’re kind of like little diary entries.
Ugh, guys. I wanna take a second and tell y’all how much I love you and this community. This past week was really difficult (SEE HERE). So many of you reached out via comment/DM/email and it really touched my heart. THANK YOU for all of the love it seriously means the most.
*I’ll be sharing some iphone pics from the week down below.*
I honesty didn’t realize how many of you are either children of veterans, or are currently spouses of a service member. It’s definitely been a reminder that we are all along for this ride together. Few understand this lifestyle.
The past week has been a mix of living my best and worst life at the same time. Which I think any spouse who’s the one holding down the homefront can attest to. You don’t want to wallow away for months on end feeling sorry for yourself, but at the same time your world is suddenly completely different. Things feel a bit off.
After I said goodbye to Michael, it was all a blur. I don’t even remember getting home. I just felt so numb and dreading the arrival to my empty house. The day went by kind of fast though thanks to my amazing and sweet friends and family (LOVE YOU GUYS WITH ALL MY HEART) who were texting me and calling me all day to make sure I wasn’t truly “alone”. So blessed it’s not even funny. In between talking to people all day I obviously got chicken nuggets from Chick-fil-a because nuggets soothe the soul.
The sand was really glittery, I was trying to show it with my hand here ^^
After the brutal first day things were really, really good. I mean as good as they can be, right? There’s been lots of running, walks with Shadow, working on my blog (this is my job btw), reading, and going to the pool. I booked a couple of trips. This weekend I went to the ocean with one of my friends here and it was really the best.
Whenever I’m feeling weak (HATE feeling weak), down, or depressed I usually do four things. Pin moody quotes on Pinterest that make me feel better. Work out my body (strong body = strong heart = strong mind). Pray my butt off. And if I’m going out, obviously wear a powerful + badass outfit. I always look at my clothes as armor. Yesterday I wore this hella cute motorcycle jacket with rose appliqués all over it. Sweet but strong, right?
Before Michael left we had lots of conversations. About what to expect of each other (highly recommend), what we wanted to accomplish during this time, and our professional and personal goals.
Michael sent me these flowers this week why is he so perfect??^^
Even though it’s incredibly painful to be away from my husband (LOVE doing life with him), I plan on making the time apart one of growth and self development.
This means there’ll be lots of: green tea, hikes, reading, blogging, traveling, running, resting, dreaming, making plans, listening to podcasts, exploring San Diego, going to the beach, etc etc etc.
If you’re a spouse who’s been down this road before, I’d love to hear your nuggets of wisdom.
Okay guys I’m gonna go read now. Byee. Love y’all.